Searching for the missing piece

Hello readers. did you guys have a good day? i hope so.
Febuary seems to be a good month for me. i found something more interesting than last year. and here it is. i just found myself sitting alone in a room and think hardly. i never like this before. i used to be hyper and clumsy. i never want to think something so hard, because i can't. i always take it easy and rarely sad because of something.
I don't know what i'm searching. what i do is just watching and think hard. i found myself looking for something that i don't know. hey i'm not sad at all, i just confused and seems like i enjoy it.well i always enjoy what i do. keep searching for the answer and seems like Febuary will make myself work harder! :)